Onward

                       

Onward

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Onward
Lucas Kirby

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The summer of 2011 proved to be one of the most difficult times of my life. With an identity crisis at hand as well as not knowing if the world I had created for myself was really the one I wanted, I was pretty much in for it. I knew that it was going to take some major transitioning. Those transitions would come on every level. There comes a time where you can either decide to ride it out and let things pass, holding onto the past and letting your pain numb you. Or, you can decide to go through the growing pains of changing your life. Slowly but surely, I decided to take the second option. 

"Onward" is the theme song to the album. To me, it is a very powerful piece that helps remind me of the importance of picking ourselves back up each and every time we fall. To learn the concept as a child is one thing. To apply it to your life is another. I decided that no matter what, I didn't want to keep focusing on the pain that I had been going through for quite some time. So I decided to change my life. It certainly wasn't easy and I'm still going through the process. 

Since writing the piece, I knew that I would let that theme be my focus for the next while. I got out of the retail end of the piano business and I now run my own business, tuning and working on pianos. Although difficult, it has been quite rewarding. It has helped me realize just how much I love the instrument. It is a career I will be able to learn from for years to come. I also enrolled in college, something I never thought I'd get a chance to do. Although I know I'm not too old, I certainly thought the option of going to school had come and past. Also at the time, I decided to move away from Salt Lake City and back to Spokane. Something has drawn me back here. It's just a good place to be and I have some amazing friends here who I consider family. They have been extremely supportive in a transitional time that has proven to be pretty difficult. Last but not least, I decided that writing music was going to be something that I want to take more seriously. It is my ultimate goal to only compose and perform piano music. I truly believe that if I keep working hard at it, that this dream will come true. 

Sometimes you just have to throw your inhibitions to the wind and bare down. You have to ignore your fears and doubts and not let them decide who you are or what you want to be. I still have to remind myself of this every day. It hasn't been easy and it will continue to be an upward battle. However, if one is too comfortable in their lives, perhaps they are not really living it. Moving onward is supposed to be hard. However, when it is hard, I quickly remind myself that it's only difficult because the reward is just as fulfilling. This helps me keep going. Sometimes we do it blindly, but always keep in mind that there is a surprise waiting for you in the end. 



Inspirational ice trumpets
Muscled, scared
Ice trumpeted swallows
Goats clawing tower
Crystal stairs sliding upward
Tone perfect spirals
Onward through souls fire
Meet me marching homeward

~Stanley Yarberry

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